I met my old squadron buddies this week. The old guys from Deep Eyes. I didn't know how they got here, but I was happy to see the face of someone from my home world. Only, they say I'm still on my home world.
They weren't up for fun and reminiscence, and they had come to tell me that like me, they had made their way back to Barrier City 42 and had discovered me, strapped into a dream sequencer, one of Dr. Sid's creations, and that I'd been in it for months, somehow, and that it was a miracle I was still alive, even with the supplements provided to the user through the machine. I told them that we were on the 'other side', but they didn't believe me. The told me that no matter what they did, they couldn't get me to wake up from the machine, like I was part of it. Neil had eventually managed to find a way to tap into my 'dream', by attaching some wires into the machine and having them end on little nodes, which can be fastened to the heads of another, which they all did in an attempt to find me.
Now, they are trapped here too. I'm not sure how it all works, but the one-way portals seem to affect the machine. Perhaps the machine itself is a kind of portal, only it transfers the consciousness of someone across, rather than their whole physical being, and that consciousness manifests itself as a tangible replica of the true body.
...It hurts to write all this, however. For months now, I had completely forgotten that in reality, I am trapped in a hellish limbo, with nothing but radio static for company. I am frankly relieved that Chaos has somehow trapped me here. Things are better here. My old squad buddies will see it the same way too, in time.
I refuse to believe that Cynosure is just a world generated by a computer. Everyone here has real personalities, real feelings, real reactions to unexpected events. Not even Earth's sophisticated computer AI systems could create something so believable. Besides, this place is my home now.
( Private )
- Cold Machine
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ghostslayer- December 17th, 2010
- Resistance?
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- ghostslayer
- October 27th, 2010
If there's anything I've learned about warfare, its that nothing is harder to quell than an underground resistance movement. They'll take out sentries, put salt in your engines, sabotage supply lines... all very easy to do, with a costly effect on their enemies. I am leaving for Prosperity tonight, in order to determine whether a resistance indeed exists, and if I so, find a way to contact them. However, depending on the security of Chaos' forces, we may not be able to determine anything.
I will dress as a civilian for this operation. Without my combat gear I can blend into a crowd pretty effectively. Normal features, nothing about my appearance that stands out in a crowd. This will maximise my chances of infiltration.
However, doing this alone would be foolish. I will need at least one partner, someone to work with me, and stay a follow me a few metres behind as we enter the streets of prosperity. That way, if one of us gets caught, the other will most likely be able to escape, and be able to confirm what happened. If anyone is happy to volunteer for this potentially risky mission (there ARE muggings, rapings, and murders abound in Paradise right now), then I will accept the help. However, it is imperative that all volunteers DO NOT stand out. No outlandish hair styles. Someone who will look normal in civilian clothings. Also, we will be unarmed, remember this. At most, I will accept two partners for this mission.
OOC: IF a battle situation is to arise (not sure yet), due to the undercover nature of everything, all characters doing this will have no weapon equipped, and will have 'clothes' as their chosen armour. Most accessories will be fine, as long as it's not obvious and outlandish, like the elf cape or cat-ear hood :P Just keep this in mind if/when it comes to setting up gambits and such. Barefist might end up being a very useful ability.
- Progress?
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- ghostslayer
- September 22nd, 2010
I think I'm getting better. Firaga is actually casting, and I left myself a little online note saying that I had not succeeded in performing the spell at all. This is strange, since I had managed to cast a weak flare before, although its power was more akin to a cherry bomb admittedly. Still, firaga is casting now, but I can't harness the power. I currently have painful burns up my arms, and accidentally set the barracks on fire. One of the bunk beds got destroyed, but it should be back tomorrow.
( Note to self )
- Dangerous magic
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- ghostslayer
- September 20th, 2010
To a man who lived in a world so steeped in logic and science, learning magic is like an addiction. Every day I practice magic. Every day I get a little better at it. I'll never be a match for the Aeris' and Vivis of this world, but each time I manage to pull off a new spell for the first time it's indescribable. Pure ecstacy, defying the laws of physics that I'm so accustomed to.
This week, I'm going to be practicing the more dangerous of magic. Even if I injure myself, I should be able to keep a log of it as long as I have working fingers, and improve upon last time. I'll hopefully improve naturally anyway by casting the spell over and over even though the day will be repeated, but by learning from my mistakes and knowing I have safety net, I should be good to go. Now, should I practice firaga? Can I pull it off?
( Private )
- Sluggish
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- ghostslayer
- September 8th, 2010
I think I must have come down with something. I've been sick today, I feel bloated and my temper seems shorter than normal. It could just be influenza, but somehow it feels more than that. I can't put my finger on it, but something inside me tells me there's more to it. I went to ask Aeris if it may be some kind of magic poisoning - I know Celes has suffered from strange symptoms that are related to magic in some way, so perhaps the case is similar. My body isn't used to magic, and I've been feverishly practicing it almost like an addiction. There's something about defying the laws of physics that really drives me to learn more.
Aeris wasn't her usual self either. She was very quiet, and very large. She looked pregnant, but I know that couldn't have been the case. I've seen her most days, and would have noticed a gradual progression of things. I need to get to the bottom of this.
- Improvements
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- ghostslayer
- August 2nd, 2010
After destroying half of the barracks last week, staying at the mall could be considered an improvement. Since I'm used to sharing rooms anyway (although it's just me and Selphie at the barracks right now), it's not too bad, and I don't have to sleep on a scorched mattress, haha! I won't be trying any advanced black magic again any time soon, although really I just want to focus on some basic support magic more than anything else. I am competent enough with a gun to not have to rely on powerful magic to get the job done, which is just as well.
I was considering taking the job as a Mall protector this week, but due to there only being 5 spots available I decided to leave it for now. As useful as I may have been to the team, I figure that it would be better to let the job go to someone who has been here longer, and has a better knowledge of the structural integrity of the mall. Then that Jihl Nabaat person signed up, and then NORG refused my assistance when I asked him. I demanded to know what grounds he refused me on, but he couldn't come up with a clear answer. Stupid yellow blob.
( Private )
- I'm so cool!
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- ghostslayer
- July 29th, 2010
Yeah! I did it, I bloody did it! Take THAT, physics - I just created an explosion out of thin air! I bought the materia for it (cost all my money but who needs that shit, right) and even though Aeris was like 'Sure I'll let you try it. Kill yourself, see if I care', so I said 'don't mind if I do!' and went off back to the barracks to try it!
Well, it took me a few spare ethers lying around the place, but I managed it. I created a goddamn mini supernova in my bedroom! So, it burned up all the mattresses and broke a couple of lockers open including Selphie's but who cares? Other lockers survived, so she can just move her stuff over.
Point is, I USED FLARE! It might have been a small one, but they said I couldn't do it, and that I needed to be a far more experienced mage to actually control it, but I sure proved them wrong, huh!
Man, what a mess. SO worth it.
- Embarassed!
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- ghostslayer
- July 13th, 2010
( Private )
- This is the life
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- ghostslayer
- July 12th, 2010
Man, this is sooo much better than my years on Earth! It was all so 'work work work', 'it's unsafe outside', 'you have to recycle to save the planet', 'blah-de-fucking-blah'. Here no-one's on my case! I don't even have to work much, since I'm just a temp. It's not like they can make me work anyway! If they try and assign me to a job, i'll be like, 'get off my case, man!' and walk out of there, back to my place in the barracks.
Speaking of which, can you believe what I woke up to? That Selphie chick, in her underwear! She told me not to look, but I did. Then she got naked for a shower! I didn't actually see boobs or anything because she got changed in the bathroom where I couldn't see her, but she was naked only about 6ft away from me! Just on the other side of the door!
I'll be in my bunk.
- An early defeat
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- ghostslayer
- June 10th, 2010
The arena tournament did not go so well in mine and Celes' favour. I still feel that we make a powerful team, but our weaknesses are obvious. With a bit more speed we may be able to become a real force to be contended with, since we are both well versed in our combat styles and abilities already. Perhaps a new gun would serve me well though, as the romanda gun is rather inaccurate and prone to jamming at times.
But I don't mind losing at all, especially to Lucrecia and Vincent. Both of them are very modest and honourable adversaries, and I would like to see them secure a victory in this tournament.
